Nothing to do!

Dec.11,09,yesterday,as the title said,nothing to do. It’s lola’s birthday but sad thing is we can’t be with her because we’re on grieving stats this week,because of losing someone. Hmmm…I planed to work but ooops! No power connection happened,8am to 5pm!How was that! How could I work,I have no internet connection and it’s only three hours my lappy would work from battery being charged. I did nothing yesterday but sleep and read my daily thoughts,bible and some spiritual pamphlets… I am happy, I am refreshed and learning. I miss Jon and wanting to call or receive call or text from him but I can’t or else my celfone battery would turn down and fall into an empty one. And so we did nothing yesterday,we have nothing to do but I worked late night,I applied techniques from Joven,LOL So I slept well and prayed that everything would turn out fine.Miss you baby…ayabu..It’s been 4 months yesterday since I last felt your loving touch and I badly missing you…

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New Me!

Dec.10,09,yesterday,again, I worked. I woke up from a good sleep though it’s only Jeng and I left here in the house,J went out early for his duty and we woke up past seven.Jeng and I were fine and I am glad I can do it again for a long time. I finally feel bringing back up my strength,my confidence and bringing out the new brave me.Thanks God.Jeng did her part and unexpectedly cleaned the the house while I was working,LOL It’s so alarming that I did not feel fear from the moment I prayed again with my bible partners the last time I joined them. The whole day turned out fine,Mom and Gel came past 7pm and so eat and rest while watching television. We slept earlier last night because of tiredness and sleepiness. I talked to Jon for a while and I miss him,I admit. May Jah bless us always baby…ayabu….

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What A Day!

Dec.9,09, waking up with a message from someone you love is a great day right? Imagine through text,it wakes you up saying good morning and “I love you”…what if  it has continuation saying bad news? nah! Just like I got from Jon,now I know why I haven’t heard any from him last few days. He was caught lending his bro boodles(pieces of food for hunger remedy)…and the punishment will be announced on Sunday,huhuhu I felt bad but I know he,they can make it though there’s a possibility that they might not get to take their passes,..so sad:( Anyways, God is good,I know he’ll make things possible and everything will turn out right.

I worked and my eyes get tired late afternoon so I rested. I think I need eyeglass again. Mom and Gel went to Manila last night. So it’s me,Jeng and J left here. Good thing J is here, coz if it’s me and Jeng alone?oh…I don’t know if I could sleep! I am afraid of the night and scenes where no one is beside or around me.It started when I was hospitalized…until now but then I am trying to overcome this fear. I know I can do this,maybe not now but soon,very soon.

I started doing my bible study again because it is what I wanted and I know I can make it! I know it will really help me bring up the new me and I feel fine learning things and facts from bible.

Miss you baby…I love you…mwah…God bless us.

Add a comment December 10, 2009

Short Talk…

Dec.8,09, ok,I wasn’t able to post here yesterday for the said date because,I am tired.I accompanied Angel to get her clearance,postal i.d,and so on…many to mention,LOL it was so weird,I come with her knowing that I might get tired. But I felt like I was so healthy,no breathing problem. And I am happy that I did a day with normal stats.

I was able to get and bond with momyow,Jon’s mom,Jon and I call her momyow,LOL So we did short yet funny talks at her office while waiting for Gel to finish the things she needs at Municipal’s office. Honestly, I am glad that everything is so fine…(I’ll post here our happy-bitter relationship here soon:-))

After lunch,here I go,I worked,yes,I worked and I am happy doing these boring yet informative stuffs I am learning. I find it boring but I can’t deny the fact that I am really learning.

I slept not that late but I am sad because no message from my baby that day,except that morning saying he’s full,how am I,and I can feel he is happy though we can’t talk as much as we want.

Sad sleep but full of hopes…

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Short Visit…

Nothing new yesterday Dec.7,09 except that I went out. I woke up again with this stinging feeling on my tummy again,oh Lord touch me. I cannot figure out what went wrong again and it’s not  easy for me to feel this way again. It’s been months since I last felt this and it hurts. I cannot concentrate on my work and I can’t long to sit on my chair working and doing stuffs.

I receive message from Jon and I was a little strengthen but still can’t deny that I am missing him more as days getting nearer to holiday season. I did not work well and I felt weak yesterday. I’ll research again what are the remedies I should do in case like this. Above all,PRAYER is my weapon. I believe I am healed and I am touched by Jah.

Mama asked me to go with her to Lola’s house to lend money for their travel to Pangasinan for the burial and I hope they peacefully did to get there although our presence is not there. It’s crisis now and sad fact is van is out,though we wanted to go there,we can’t that fast.

May Lord bless us and watch over us always. I slept a little early because of a note from Jon,he’ll try communicate to me at 2am… mwah!Miss you baby…ayabu…

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Nice…

Dec.6,09.Yesterday,Sunday,hmm…nothing really new as always,read my daily thought,ate well and less sleep. I slept with tears in my eyes, Ace talks likes Jon and I think I miss Jon more now. Ace taught me how to be calm and somehow he makes me laugh aside from helping us,Jon and I to communicate. He is a really big help for us overcoming our absences.

I received text from him and it was short yet too sweet and deep. I do not feel good,maybe because of my period but then I am fine with Jah’s guidance and blessings.And I lift everything to Jah,I trust HIM.

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Half bad,half better…

And so my worries still lingers me yesterday,Dec.5,09. Until I woke up with two text messages,it was Jon again, saying he was fine and so to my worry,I asap dialed the number,no answer after five minutes, he texted again to call and so I did,he was fine,ok…he makes me laugh but I felt his aches. I even asked him how’s his brother and so he said,as usual Dj was punished whole day because of that celfone. I asked him to put down the phone so that he can rest and I am worrying that he might caught too. After our talk,I called his mom too and told her they were fine.I told her everything we talked about and she cries,heard and feel it in her voice.

I tried fixing some of my things here and I worked too,I set up the tasks I have to start and it was great.I am really learning.I read my daily thoughts late and tried stretching again. I played with my nephew and he was so talkative!LOL Every weekdays they tried visiting us and it was fine. It was lively.

Late afternoon,we received text message from Basa, our lolo past away:( Dec.5,09 at around 5am. Our lolo was very nice to me,I remember him laughing whenever he heard things from me, I always stop him to smoke and and buy food instead. Awh,this is life and I am at peace knowing he was resting now. He’ll stop hearing painful words from others,he’ll stop seeing people not caring about him,he’ll stop his heart from crying,who would know,in his silence in his last days,he asked God to forgive him and beg HIM to cleanse him. May you rest in peace lolo…

Sad yet full of hopes day yesterday. Jehovah,may you always guide and watch over us always.God bless us….

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Worry and Sad:(

Dec.4,09,yesterday,I had a deep sleep though a little irritable one because of my tummy. I woke up yesterday with a smile because of text messages I received but it was all gone when, I found out that my lappy needs reformat and so I did,long hours of restoring and another installation process needed.Whew!

I had a good eating habit and read my daily thought but something’s really not fine. And finally I knew it! Ace call was something suspicious, he first asked me to calm down and then he doesn’t know how to tell me that Jon got stitches because of an accident yesterday so I cried silently,full of worries and I know he feels my worries. He asked me to stop crying and Jon’s is fine he said. But then,it’s natural and it’s just my reaction.I bet momyow would cry if she hears that news.

I don’t know but I haven’t work well due to my unit viruses detected and this thing was another thing to think of…pressure… Miss you baby… I love you…God bless us!

Add a comment December 5, 2009

Rush and Messed Up!

Dec.3,09,I had a good sleep though my tummy don’t feel fine.It feels like bloated and stinging. Took maalox and relieved the pain somehow. I wake up, no toothbrush,no washing of face,straight to my laptop, it’s our webinar day,oh no!I am late but it was fine. The short talk turns out fine and funny. Maybe we’re just shy so few of us talks,most of the time Jess,LOL I had a great time talking to them,oh,listening rather.:) After the meeting,I ate breakfast, took medicine,read my daily thoughts and set my laptop for work.

And everything was messed up when this bugging thing keeps flashing at my screen,Virus detected!No! Last option is to reboot and reformat this after different tries of healing the virus. At the same time I am feeling bad because of missing Jon. I haven’t heard his voice, but then I think it’s fine. Sad part there,Dj,Jon’s bro was caught inside BMTS using celfone,and for the whole day,he was punished according to Ace,our friend there,Jon’s Sir. I do not feel fine maybe because of my coming period too,oh no,why these happens all in one a day, I did not work well because of my mood,I am blank and dizzy. I have to catch my tasks fast or else I’ll get full loaded in the end. Bad day,ayabu baby…miss you a lot…always pray,I love you…

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Girl Bonding!

Dec.2,09,yesterday, from a short yet good sleep, I woke up with full of hope and faith. I never stopped believing I am ok and I am healed.I did not feel any short-breathing last night when we went to park. It’s unexpected anyway,Jaz came and it’s very once in a while that she comes home and ask us to go with her out,so went to park last night, we walked a little and ate there with laughter and funny talks,it was her treat!LOL Do we have to say no?LOL

I read my daily thoughts when I woke up, stretched, and sat down on my fave sofa near our bed and closed my eyes,relaxing my mind before facing my laptop again. I had few mistakes and it would double up my task!nah! I don’t want to get angry because it’s my fault and as they say,practice makes perfect, I don’t have to feel bad because it’s natural. Thanks Joven.

I haven’t talked to Jon again and I missed him. Now that again I don’t feel good since last night. I miss my baby,his touch and care. Days to come dear,God is good, we’ll be fine. I love you,God bless us…

Add a comment December 3, 2009