Happy Birthday Mama!

Today’s Mama’s birthday,it’s a tireful day and happy as well, I woke up to check if Jane would go to the market and buy our present to Mama. We bought cake,they cooked pansit,and prepared gulaman for the drinks. It’s nice day. We went to Nepo and Genra late afternoon,bought our needs and Mama’s purpose to her cp is done. It is raining still and as of now, I’m sleepy. We went early at the ophthalmologist clinic with Mama coz I had these allergies on my eyes which causes them to be very red and itchy. I’m now fine.

How bout you there baby? Are you fine,today is your first month there and I miss you now. Momyow and Nie went to Batangas,they’ll try to see you as far as they can,I send them your voltaren and asked them to buy hany for you and Dj. Be strong,we’re going to be fine. Always pray baby.I misss you, I love you…mwah..goodnight…ayabu…

Add a comment September 12, 2009

It’s done!

New morning,I ate, tell stories with them and read my daily inspirational thought. It says,I have to be strong,forget the pasts and face tomorrows with God,so that’s what I will do. I trust God and everything will be alright. TTomorrow is Mom’s birthday, we haven’t planned for any gift yet but I hope we could make her happy somehow by being together.

I worked and played today and tomorrow will be rest day,good for me and my eyes.I had red eyes for weeks and I’m a little worried,I hope I’d be fine.

God bless us dear…It’s my 6th year today,and my lovelife at 3rd year starts and ends with you as long as we’re together.Ayabu!

Add a comment September 11, 2009

I felt her now:)

It’s fiesta today, it’s been very busy here,they cook and fix everything and I slept in the morning while they were busy. I can’t explain last night, almost 1am, I can’t breathe well, I can’t find my way to sleep, I even thought of Jon’s situation again, the feeling I felt that night is as almost the same as before,when he was confined.

Today, I expected Jon’s mom and nie2 to come here at the house. It is a nice day because I see their response I am trying to have. I see their closeness to me now unlike before. We ate,tell stories and thoughts about Jon there. We laugh and hope that everything’s gonna be alright.

When it’s time to say goodbye, momyow said bye and kiss me on my cheeks, I felt her now, I am glad that she slowly accepts and understand me now. I know it’s not my imagination but it is all true. I am happy now and I thank God.

The day has ended and it was a happy though tired day. I’ll toothbrush now and rest. Tomorrow is another day so keep safe there baby,we’ll be fine and God will always guide us. I love you,mwah!God bless!

Add a comment September 10, 2009

Am I Sick?

I woke up early in the morning,still raining. It is cold and dark outside. Tomorrow is their fiesta, well I don’t celebrate actually fiesta but since I grew up celebrating fiesta, it goes still…good thing is I just got my salary and as usual,mom borrowed a little. J tomorrow has his salary I hope. Jaz, I know has something to share,though we really don’t know her salary amount. I’m just glad we grew up well and we now can help mom and dad somehow.

I don’t know what I feel today,I can’t explain but maybe I am just nervous and worried because September 11 is coming. It is the day when I almost die,actually,I was,and it was my second life. I know it’s bad to think negative but I can’t deny the fact I am frightened. I just put everything to Jehovah because I know I have Him so I don’t have to worry. I  am at peace that I have God watching over me. I trust Him more than anybody.

Well baby,are you ok there? I hope it’s raining there,so that you can relax very well. Keep safe,your vitamins baby huh,do not forget. I love you papa, I am missing you so much,a lot. I can’t wait to see you again. Tomorrow, it’s been 1 month since I last saw you so, don’t quit, days are getting faster! We can do it! Mwah, I love you!!! Good night,God bless…

Add a comment September 9, 2009

Typing day1…

I wake up at 5:30 am and until now,awake! I am very sleepy now and I guess after this I can rest asleep. I don’t feel good today because of my period but I still worked and somehow played. It’s raining here still,I hope it goes as well there so that you can somehow relax,out of heat exposure from training.

I miss you baby,I love you.Always pray huh,be strong,keep safe.

Nightie,mwah!God bless…really sleepy…

Add a comment September 8, 2009

Whew,I feel better!

I can’t sleep this past few days,maybe because I am ot that relaxed and I wanted to sleep in a way that I know I am really going to sleep. Jon is fine now,he’s out from the hospital,the nurse said since yesterday.Now I know why I felt that fast heartbeat I felt in the morning yesterday as I said. No worries now, and I should not be. Still raining today and really cold here,I am thinking if is it the same there at Batangas,the weather??! I hope so. Good thing is there will be no more activity to do there,and he can rest while studying his lectures at the same time.

Now,I felt loneliness,I am missing him,his caress and him,all about him.Baby,keep praying,we’ll be both fine,we will face these trials together and God in the middle. Keep us healthy Lord.

I hope,Tita and Nie were fine there,it’s raining…I bet they’ll be having wet floor again…(sad). But they can manage it though I can’t deny the fact that I am worried.I love you Jon,miss you,take care huh.Pray,pray,pray,I’ll text momyow to check if they’re ok after this.

Good night dear…mwah,God bless us!oops!your vitamins huh,don’t forget.

Add a comment September 7, 2009

Thinking of you…

I had no idea now if you were in the hospital still dear but I can’t wait for tomorrow because I had the chance to text the nurse you asked to use cp…it’s her duty tomorrow and I hope she has good news for me. It rains until now,it’s cold and very in mood to sleep but I did not sleep. I tried reviewing the things I have to do tomorrow and played too.

I felt fast heartbeat around 10-11am and it scares me,to be honest. I don’t know why but I think it’s because of the abdominal disturbances I am experiencing,I haven’t poop again for 4 days!!as always,constipated and I felt bad everyday I because it irritates my mood and my concentrations to what I do. I just felt relaxed when I pooped,whew,sorry for the words.

Today is Papa’s birthday and we celebrated by just preparing merienda and eating too much today(I ate a slice of cake,too sweet! 2 servings of pansit, a cup of ice cream!) it’s too much for me but enjoyed eating those again after almost 7 months.yummy!

It’s raining now and my bed is calling me to sleep,so night baby…I hope,pray and wish that we’ll be both fine and well. I love you,God bless us and I miss you!mwah!!!

Add a comment September 6, 2009

How are you now?

I haven’t slept well last night,I think of Jon,is he doing fine now,is he sleeping well,does he takes his vitamins now and feels better? I am worried and confident in a way.Jon’s mom told me that he is fine now,with vitamins and someone’s looking after him now,and I hope it’s not a girl(hmmm,jealous). But then, I feel still something confuses me,is he angry coz my Aunt didn’t make to visit him yesterday as I told him yesterday after lunch?I hope he is not,I hope he understands.I hope he can call or text me because I won’t be relaxed until I hear words from him again…I miss him more now.

Today rains all day and it’s cold now. I miss him more now,I think of him more now,I worried more now, because I know he has colds and flu too,if it is raining there too,he might feel cold too.Lord,heal us.Touch us.We believe and trust in You. Let’s lift everything to Jehovah Jon,and everything will be smooth and fine.

After this,I hope I can sleep well and I hope you too baby.I love you.

I miss you!I love you too more…mwah!God bless us!

Add a comment September 5, 2009

now I know why…

Yesterday,I was so blank and I can’t work very well,I am worried,tired,confused,bored,blank,as in I can’t concentrate in everything I do. I was thinking of you early this morning,I always wake up almost 3am out of nothing and can’t back to sleep again. I even have you in my dreams baby. I remember you in my dreams along with 3 man wearing,lower bda and a green tshirt running and lay down on a deep,grassy,watery site,where your faces facing down and you were all covered then with a truck of sand! I shouted in my dream because I don’t see you moving but you along with the three man climbed and run off that place.I don’t know why I was there but we talked,I am telling you that you can do it,don’t give up,keep safe,I love him,everything I can say,but then they have to go,they ride on a truck they call 6by and I see them smaller and smaller as they go away.And I woke up full off worries…until now…

Jon called and texted me,saying he’s in the hospital,2 days today,he’s low blood and needs rest.I don’t know if I will be happy or sad,happy because we talked again,we say what we wanted and longing to say. Or I’d be sad because he’s not feeling well,he’s dizzy because of his low blood. But then when I heard his voice,it is a heaven feeling,we know what we wanted to say and we can’t say nothing but we missed each other,we’ll be fine,we’ll pray always.Hmmm…this day is over again and I’m a little sad because I don’t know again when will I hear him again,his sweet and touching words. I hope he’ll be fine,he was attended very well there as the nurse said and I hope he was behave and brave enough to face challenges again.Good heealth for us Jesus,nyt baby,I love you,rest well huh…mmmmwah!God bless us!

Add a comment September 4, 2009

sorry,really blank yesterday…

Sorry baby,I did not share anything to you yesterday,the whole day was very blank to me,I worked but I don’t really understand what I did,I just done them to rest. It’s a little incomplete now,you’ve been far from me for 3 weeks,no text,no call,no communication at all. Now I understand why our friends before misses their partners when they were on training,it’s not that easy.

Yesterday,I know I  just watched television,played very little,read my tasks,apply some work then done. I just sat on the sofa,drink water,eat,thinking of nothing,meaning bored.

Today,I’ll try to work and I hope I’ll be fine doing these stuffs while tolerating my aching tummy,my head aches,and sleepy.Maybe because of the rainy weather and my coming period.

I’ll be right back later dear,I love you,mwah!Keep safe there huh,miss u…

Add a comment September 4, 2009